My first post...

Well today is my 101st straight day of meetings (except for that one day in Myrtle Beach when there was a meeting on the schedule and no one showed up)! If someone had told me on the morning January 19th that I'd be sitting here writing this, I would not have believed them. That day was like any other Saturday. I farted around at home, then went to see PS I Love You with my best friend, then went shopping, then felt drawn to the AA clubhouse. I'd been many times before and didn't particularly like it, but my therapist kept suggesting that I go. I drove past, then said to myself, "just do it, just turn into the parking lot and don't think about it!" Wait...maybe that wasn't me, but my higher power.

I have learned so much in these 101 days. I have a sponsor who has a sponsor who has a sponsor who has a sponsor. I've joined a home group and am the literature person. I've read the Traditions at the clubhouse in front of a huge group of people. I've picked up a white chip, a red chip and a silver medallion that reads "to thine own self be true." I've had a silly, obsessive crush on a mechanic beaming with the contagious enthusiasm that sometimes emanates from this program. And I've sat next to him in church as a friend. I have not lied to my sponsor about anything. I've made priorities and set boundaries. I've admitted that I am powerless over alcohol and over other people, places and things. There is a God and I AM NOT IT!

This program has given me hope and a new way of living. I've faced the "proposition that either God is everything or else He is nothing. God either is or He isn't." (Big Book pg. 53) God Is.